GLENMORA, LA. — Becky Calloway is not one to dwell on anger, deep sorrow or who is to blame for the 2005 explosions at BP’s Texas City refinery that killed her husband, Dan Hogan.
In the minutes after the fatal blasts, she walked out onto the front porch and “the Holy Spirit told me (Hogan) was gone.”
Late that night, after she returned from the medical examiner’s office, Calloway turned on the television and watched reports on the explosions.
“There was so much anger,” she said. “My heart broke. That is not how God wants us to feel. When I woke up the next morning I was at peace.”
Faith has been ever present in Calloway’s approach to the fatal blasts. In the days after, she spoke of Hogan’s faith in God and how he was in a “better place.”
“I have peace now as I did then,” Calloway said. “God is in charge every day. His ways are higher than my ways.”
Her thoughts have been not on herself or her late husband.
“Who I hurt for the most are those who were at the controls (at the refinery unit) that day,” Calloway. “I know they must carry a great burden. I want them to know that I forgive them. My prayer for them is to give it all to Jesus.”
That faith was present when Calloway spent time in the intensive care unit and burn units at the University of Texas Medical Branch visiting other victims of the explosion.
At a Whataburger in Baytown, she met one of the victims who had been seriously burned in the blasts.
“I brought along my Bible so that I could share Jesus with him,” she said. “He was disfigured by the burns and talked about his wife and two little kids. He was struggling, but he told me he loved the Lord.
“There is so much worse than dying if you are a Christian. Dan was a Christian and he is in a place (Heaven) where I would like to be.”
While lawyers hammered out settlements with BP for the survivors and those injured by the blasts, Hogan dealt with BP officials directly. She insists, however, she wasn’t alone.
“God was my lawyer,” she said. “I was not alone in that.”
Part of her settlement with BP required the company to refurbish Hogan’s truck. A few years later, she “made a real good deal,” and sold the truck to a financially strapped man who occasionally did some handy work for Calloway.
Calloway insists that Hogan and God had their hand in her meeting her husband Bill Calloway, a preacher in Glenmora.
“It was Dan’s mother who is responsible for us meeting,” Calloway said. “She kept telling me how I should come and hear this preacher, because he was real good. So I went to church with her one day, not knowing he was single.
“He was single and we got married.”
That was eight years ago. The two spend much of their free time on mission trips working with a church in Hungry Horse, Mont.
She and her husband also volunteer time at the Dry Creek Baptist Camp, which is not far from their home. It is the same camp where Hogan volunteered and was a member of the board of directors.
“I was there in February,” she said. “I cleaned toilets, I dusted walls (and) helped serve food.”
That Monday is the 10th anniversary of the explosions is not something Calloway dwells on either.
“Unless I write that date down, I won’t remember it,” she said. “I don’t even think about it. I don’t think God wants us to do that.
“I know where he is, and I am jealous about that.”